there's a dark spot in my soul
it fills me with fear
spirit is forever, I know
but I have not learned to touch it yet
How will I go on if you leave me now?
memories do not comfort me
they stir the muddy dark spot till it rises up like a phoenix
but there is no beauty there, just dark and alone
Im stuck here, immersed in the physical
loving and needing you
afraid of losing you
losing myself
fighting to see the good
failing
falling
crying.............................................................